Jessie Van der Laan
Balance is a precarious moment of potential; lilting and haunting, like thoughts that pass through the mind at quiet moments. I am attracted to objects and scenes of transition, history, and structure. I use my work to reach out as all-but-forgotten memories, which feel familiar and common, but fade before they can be fully defined. I continue to reach, exploring the meeting of two oppositional forces, inside and outside, heaviness and lightness, attachment and displacement, protection and entrapment, decay and regeneration. I find that the path is not always clear, and that moments of ambiguity and uncertainty bring rewards of complexity and subtlety. I relate these forces to emotional counterpoints: hope is a moment where fear and desire meet; with loss comes renewal; mourning can turn to celebration. I try to investigate the truly bittersweet moments, and embrace sentiment, love, and memory. I am particularly interested in the residue of memories, of objects and images that connote a lost moment, or a lost place, or a lost spirit. I depict abstracted scenes that are at once an emotional landscape and a bodily organ or creature. These forms, themselves, are moments of transition: orifices, folds, seams, crevices and points of light. I hope to create a sense of searching, of hope, of nostalgia for both the past and future. In this searching lays the foundation of potential, fear and desire melding in one quivering moment.